Lost! Lost! Lost!

Has anyone saw my brain? Yes today i was literally searching for my brain. I had my Technical Analysis Lab model practicals. I was lost and blanked out. Can anyone titrate 0.1N with 0.5N? I did that today. My teacher was so generous to make me do the experiment with the manual. On top of it i have used the reagents wrong. Its tough time for him to evaluate my paper. Now i feel i am not worth doing engineering. Is there anyway to quit from this depth? I am very much depressed with my performance. There is only one mistake that i have done to my life. Joining this university has ruined my life, my confidence, my joy, etc. I have taken up a challenge beyond my thinking limit. Both the five credit subject has left me in dark. I have no scope to solve this dark riddle. Marks are just born babies with a loud cry. I want my parents to condemn me. I am putting up with others only because of my parents belief on me,because of my parents expectation. I have taken my subject seriously but i have gone down in my life. I am not worth doing it now. No one can console me except for the god himself. Please pray.

I, India and Pakistan

The most favorite topic for anyone to discuss is about India and Pakistan. And I am no different. Let me take a different view on this topic. Every Indian would admit that India stands for good and Pakistan stands for evil. And every Pakistani will say aloud "Pakistan zindabad".
     Let me take you to thousands of years back. Everyone knows about the Devas and the Asuras and the story behind them. Without a doubt, Devas were good and Asuras were evil. Yes everyone will accept this. But when we take a closer look at the deeds of Devas and Asuras, one may accept the thinking of Asuras and one may not. From this, it is clear that Devas and Asuras did not stand for good and bad but they were different. So there was a clash.
    Now on a general explanation, take an example of a classroom. There maybe several difference of opinion over the same issue. For instance,choice of  a leader for the class. Everyone need not go for the same person. And electing one from the whole lot does not mean others are evil.
   This is the Law of universe. India stands for the Masculine and Pakistan stands for the Feminine. A difference of opinion between dissimilar ways of life gets portrayed as a fight between the good and the evil. The world cannot be classified as good and bad. Its upto the individual to see the good in every bad and bad in every good. In other words one has to enhance his thinking and open oneself to all the sufferings of life. It is more important for a person to get prepared to face the so called the evil.A coin always has two sides, the world always have two extremes.
   
   

What happened in last few days?

I am now at college, worth mentioning, studying in SASTRA university. I was under books last week. Its very common here to study only before the day of exam. And thats what happened last mid-sem also. This time is so special because i was driven to study by one of my friend. Its very unusual. I have never done such a group study in my life. Each time she came over to me, taught me appropriately and i feel so satisfied about my exams. Scores are of course secondary. I dont know whether i kept her engaged each time when she approached. I always wanted her to feel that the time we spend together should prove some use for her. I hope this continues. I thank her for motivating me to study. All credits to her.These memories will not vanish in course of time. The person whom i have mentioned will surely understand when she reads this piece of my inner self.